The Sick Me

Things have happened since I've updated. One of the major things is that I have gotten ill. I would have updated sooner if I hadn't been afflicted with this condition. I dont even know what it is. It started for real the day I went to the doctor to put on a blood pressure test on my arm, I went around with it for twenty four hours and then I gave it back, so they could measure how my pressure had been during this period. I did it because a lot of people get a high blood pressure when they just do certain things, like going to the doctor or when they get nervous, often it is difficult to be aware of it in yourself. My doctor is now on vacation and I will get the results when he gets back in August.

However I started to get an extreme headache and feel dizzy and tired some days before I took this test and two days ago it got so bad that I had to let my parents drive me to the emergency. The doctor there didn't belive that it came from the blood pressure, because it's not dangeriously high, the overpressure were on 160, while the underpressure showed 100. A normal overpressure should be around 100, while the underpressure should show around 80. It's worse to have a high underpressure than a high overpressure. If you have an overpressure over 200 it could affect the brain. A lot of people however go around with a high blood pressure without even knowing it and usually there is a lot you can do about it.

The doctor at the emergency thought however, that my dizziness and headache could come from my neck, because I have gotten muscle problems there from sitting in front of my computer and my neck haven't been the best from before either. A neck problem could affect the blood vessel's that leads to the eyes or something and cause you to get a headache and feel dizzy. It could also be a virus that they say go around nowadays, one that affects the nerve system. Who knows, I just have to see if I get better before my doctor comes back from his vacation, so I get it checked. If not, I have just call them and ask them if they can at least just take a blood test.

I used to suffer from a low blood percent earlier, meaning I had little iron in my blood and when I did have that I felt much like I do now. To have a low blood percent is something very uncomfortable, you feel constantly tired, dizzy, loud noises are very painful. You feel like you live in a vacuum and when people talk to you it's like their miles away. It's the worst feeling I've ever had. When I became a teenager my blood percent turned almost normal, I used to go around with eight and suddenly I had fourteen, which is normal. Last time I checked it was around twelve and that is quite normal too. Now I haven't checked it for a long time, so I better do it. However, I'm not so tired, I just feel very dizzy. The only thing I got from the doctor was a prescription on muscle relaxers for my neck and maybe I do feel a little better now. I dont think it is my neck however, it's just my intuition, because I know my body and I've had problems with my neck for so long and it's never been like this. I hope it's the virus of course and not the blood pressure or the blood percent, because it would be easier to deal with, these other things would take time and energy to get on track.

No matter what, I have decided that I'm going to eat a lot more healthy food now. I will start to eat fish two days a week, I will try to eat some of the vegetables and fruits that I like every day and take better care of myself. I have also started to take some vitamins and in that way I will hopefully build up the blood percent if it acctually is low. I have been to a food specialist before when I suffered from a low blood procent and a low potassium value in my blood, so I know all about what I should
eat, when I actually wants to.

I also got an advice from the doctor at the emergency ward, an advise I have gotten before. He thought I could get my blood pressure down by swimming or doing some mild training. I will try to put myself into these things, little by little and we will see how I turn out. In myself I know I could do a lot with my health, it's just that I've always been quite sick, but not in a dangerous way, so it leaves you tired and you feel like letting go of trying to do something. Anyway, I do feel right now, that I am on a good track with my life, that's just not an intuition, but I feel it is a fact as well.

Over to something else. Three days ago I had a hair cut, now it is short with some longer parts and shorter parts, in other words; there is some shape on it. I never go to the hairdresser, I have my mum cut it for me. It always irritates me that the hairdressers never do what I tell them to do and they always put so much chemicals in and shape it in a way you can never manage to do on your own. They always tell me that I need a really expensive cure balsam oil thing in it and then they charge me more than I felt like paying for it when came there. So I haven't been cutting it at the hairdressers for years. My mum is not perfect, but she do (almost) whatever I tell her to do with my hair. A lot of times it's turned out as something extremely horrible. Like one time when I ended up looking like some prisoner that were cut with a garden scissors. It wasn't s bad this time, she cut me with her shaving tools though, a large cut in my neck. I felt numb and uncomfortable when I saw it, maybe it was because I didn't feel it, yet it was such a large cut. That was nothing compared to what my grandmother once did to one of her sisters, she cut off a bit of the ear when she did her hair. My grandmother was never allowed to cut my hair.