Things have not been happening and if I would choose to write a long entry here today, it would only be about things have happened in the past or is happening inside my head. I leave these things to be today...
I am tired and I have a high blood pressure and I dont know why. I have never had it before. I cant eat anything with salt in it for a whole week, I cant take my pills and I cant do anything but wait, until wednesday, when I go see the doctor again to check my blood pressure. I will tell you more about these matters later. There is a lot I could write about here, but usually I feel it's too personal. No matter what, I decided I wanted to be more personal and less political here some time ago and that means that I will write a lot more about myself in the future.
I haven't been off my pills since I were four years old and now that I am I dont feel well, since my body is used to being on them. If it is the pills that give me the high blood pressure, then I cant take them anymore of course and in many ways it's possible that I cant live without them either...
Sometimes I have this feeling of a wave that moves in my heart and for one second it takes my breath away. I am very tired of doctors and very often I feel I'm fighting against myself. I will tell you how it went at the doctor after wednesday. Wish me good luck.
