To Meggin

This is just a small update entry that concern those who read my previous entry.

Meggin and I have sorted things out now. She has become emotional about it and she wanted me to remove the link to her site because of people writing to her saying nasty things. Instead I write this entry to say that I dont feel any hate towards her, I never have and if I sounded mad in my last comment, it was because I wrote it right after I had discovered the theft. Maybe I also wanted Meggin to excuse herself more, explain to me why she hadn't read my info page on my rights as the owner of this place. Maybe I should have contacted her before I wrote the entry about this and we could have sorted it out in private. I was mad however, I am a person that get easily mad about things. Small things, big things. However I am also a person that easily forgives and wish to understand. I try to take the time and I'd like to be respected for that.

Right after I had written my angry previous entry, I felt I was over with the whole issue. A lot of people got the impression that me and Meggin had a war going on. This is not the case and I would never even start a war in any situation. I'm a person that needs to express my anger and then I'm done. I dont fight with people to create a war, I try to make a point. If people start to take it as a expression of battle, then my point is lost.

If you are old enough to be called mature you also take the blame for your own faults. When someone are upset with you, you take it as a lesson not a battle challenge. Because it has nothing to do with who is good or bad or who the victim is, it has to do with taking responsibility over your own actions. Admit fault and let people be able to be a little angry about it.

No matter what. I never thought I would write another entry about the theft issue. I hate to write about another person in my public diary like this, I feel now that I should have talked to her in private instead. I feel that is my error in this situation. A lot of people have read about this and some have given us comments about it. So I write this entry now, because I dont wish that Meggin should suffer for it. She is probably a wonderful person and everyone makes mistakes. It's terrible to say that someone should die, it's terrible to say it about yourself or about anyone else, no matter who they are. I feel for Meggin if she get messages like that. I feel for Meggin if she feels this way herself. I am very sorry about expressing my anger in my last entry Meggin.

I also write this now because I dont think my behaviour was out of line, except for the fact that I could have talked to you before I wrote about it in my diary. When I say that I'm mad I mean it, but that doesn't mean that I hate or want people to die. I write this because I dont want to bargain. I dont want to change my entries as a bargain to have nasty things said about me removed. If anyone hates me I'd like them to stand for it, not change their feelings if they get a good bargain. This would just mean that nothing matters at all.

So my previous entry will not be removed. If the "I Hate Raven" webring will stay or be removed it will not matter to me. No, not because I have so many visitors to my diary, that it doesn't matter if a few people hates me. I dont care about these things, because I find it amusing that someone wants to take the time to create a hate ring about a single individual. It wouldn't matter to me if the whole world joined it. I am me and as long as I can stand for my own actions, be it good deeds, faults and errors, it really doesn't matter if people like it or not. I write mostly for my own amusement and if you do, there will always be someone that will care to read if you share. If my last entry was a little too harsh, I'd like to stand for that error, not remove it as though nothing has happened.

I hope you will continue to write in your diary Meggin, if that's what you feel is good for you. You shouldn't care so much about what people say. Like I said, try to look ahead and what you do matters more than what they say you do. I'm sorry if I made you feel sad about what you did. Take care!

PS. And if you want help with the heart button for your ring or something, I'm still willing to help you Meggin. Just ask. No hard feelings.