lørdag 9. februar 2002

I'm Not Your Leader

I had this weird dream tonight. It was quite amazing, one of those that you instantly feel must mean something. So I want to write it here, in case I should forget it... I wasn't well last night, I'm still not well. I have headache, stomach pains and a sour throat. I also feel very tired and not in a way, where it would help if I went to bed. Anyway because of all this I went to bed early last night. I wasn't supposed to because I wanted to see the opening of the olympics. It started around 3 at night (Western European time) over here in Norway. I don't look at the sports, I don't even care if Norway ever wins anything. I only like watching the theatrical stuff they open the whole event with. Anyway, I didn't get to see it live, as I wasn't well and went to sleep. The last thing I heard was my mom telling me that Bush was going to speak around 3. I don't like Bush and I do think they spend to much money on the Olympics, money they could have spent on better things. However it's a cool and positive thing anyway, that we can get together, all the countries around the world and do something positive. No matter what I didn't get to see it. I had a dream instead and I want to tell you about it, for whoever reads it. Here is how it went;

I was in a desert, it was blowing sand and all kinds of desert things around in the air. At certain points it was quiet and dark. It was obviously night. I was flying, as I usually do in my dreams, I don't have any wings, I just hang in the air somehow. I felt lost in this big desert of sand and didn't know where to fly. Until a large mass of cars came running towards me, they seemed to be going in my direction and they obviously knew were they were heading. When they past me under my flying body, I felt the sand that blew up in my face and I realized I had to follow them. Something was going to happen. We went deeper into the desert, but suddenly a very tall mountain blocked the way and all the cars stopped. Some people went out, others sat in their cars with their engines running. I had landed on top of a car roof and waited like them. Time went by and I realized something really big was going to happen. Something frightening, something amazing, something extraordinary... Suddenly something scared them and they all started their cars and turned around, going back to were they came from. Then when I saw what scared them I became frightened myself. It was big flat alien ship like the one in Independence Day. It came over the mountain and stopped over me. As I was hanging in the air, just close to the mountain wall, I saw that the mountain was filled with small windows. Millions of billions of windows. I couldn't escape, I wasn't alone. There were obviously aliens living in this big mountain. I touched the cold mountain wall as I were hanging high above the ground. It had a strange feeling when I touched it. I felt it spoke to me, or yearned, the billions of living beings inside gave out an aura, that made me smile and feel relaxed. The big ship had come to pick them up, they were leaving earth. I didn't know this, no one told me, no one came out of the mountain and everything were silent again. There are just things you know in dreams, you don't have to have things explained to you. You just realize certain things in all the craziness. Somehow they just make sense and a lot of times it seems to have a point, on a deeper level than in the awaking dreams of reality. The last thing I remember before I woke up, was that I held a speech, while hanging in the air in front of all the billions of shining small windows. I still remember the speech, but if I don't write it down now, I'm probably going to forget it. It was in english and maybe it was much longer, but this is what I recall of it;

I'm not your leader
I'm not the one who are going to lead you
but I'm the one to grant you a goodbye
Humanity is an unfunctional machine
Please understand
we've been trying to fix it for decades
without any success or light of hope...
You will be better where you are going
They will stay the same
Ruin the dreams of the future
and tomorrow will be like sand in the wild air
Forgive them for their smallness
because they never know what they are doing
to themselves...